Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Advent Expectations

A beautiful Christmas gift from Chris's work.

It's advent season again. Each year, I enter into this season with great expectations. I imagine weeks worth of meaningful advent preparation. I envision four little boys eagerly attending family devotions: soaking up scripture, reciting verses, and singing beautiful Christmas hymns as a group. Alas, if history has taught me anything, it's to set my expectations low.

As in years past, tonight's advent devotional was anything but peaceful. I read the prepared lesson with accompanied scripture. The boys teetered between fidgeting and completed zoning out. At one point, I could feel my pulse quicken and steam rise from my ears as I shouted something like, "Can't you see the love of Christ?" Even as I said it, something felt wrong.

When I wrapped up the passage, I followed up with some questions.

Me: What is grace?

Connor: She lives in our neighborhood.

Me: Where do we get grace?

Collin: From Batman.

Me: How should we respond?

Cooper: Clearly not listening to my question, responds to Collin's thoughts on Batman.

The conversation steers quickly towards a dissertation on Batman and his religious beliefs.

Me: Clearly frustrated, vows to just give up.

Then, I think about the words offered to me by an older, wise mother. She said sometimes it's not what you say, it's what they see you do. I suppose at this stage of our life, they're seeing our family's importance on advent, even though the words are yet to sink in.

For this year that's enough; there's always next year.

1 comment:

  1. Advent devotionals are important in our family too. And you never know what direction the conversation will turn...but I think with the priority we've placed on advent through the years, it will be one of the top family traditions our children remember.